My shot at hope.
Rain and I go way back. I was born in the rainiest spring on record. I was born in a downpour and it rained everyday for 2 weeks after that. My farmer Father was entirely beside himself. The bonding time we had however, formed a special connection we have to this day.
Rain and I have always been best buddies. For 27 years it’s rained on my birthday. Without fail. Sometimes just a sprinkle, sometimes a downpour but always without fail.
My HS graduation party was a 30 degree pouring rain event. My college graduation was a rainy night. My uncles took bets on rain on my wedding day.
This May was the 3rd driest on record. June comes and we find out that our Little Angel is making the way to heaven. Along with it comes a rainy June. While I’ve come to accept the facts, I still have my down days and an empty sense of longing I can’t fill.
And then comes rain. Just like clockwork. Just like always.
It’s my shot at hope that maybe God is really working miracles up there. What that miracle is I can’t say for sure, but God knows and that’s what matters.
So rain, rain, rain. Bring on the rain. I won’t mind.
It’s my last shot at hope.
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I just read your story. My prayers are with you, your husband and your precious angel.
ReplyDeleteI've read your story and I'm so, so sorry. This post brought tears to my eyes. I thought of the Mercy Me song. Maybe you know it? Here are part of the lyrics. It's beautiful.
ReplyDeleteI can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain
I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain
My prayers are with you and your family.
I just read your story as well. Thoughts & prayers are with you & your husband. And you're so right, God does work miracles.
ReplyDeleteI'm mostly a lurker on the D&R board, but just wanted you to know I have been thinking of you daily. Keep on keepin' on.
ReplyDeleteI love that song posted above. It's one of my favorites and I thought of it as soon as I read this post.
ReplyDeleteI also love this song...
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it’s all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won’t drown
And one day what’s lost can be found
You stand in the rain